Dissapointed ...

I don't know what to write in my blog , but ...
I'm really sad now ...
Most of my friends doesnt know why i've been like this ...
I will tell you , since there's only some of the
Friends from Facebook And Tinierme here ...
You considered smart for founded my blog ..
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it's all about me and my Gf ..
she won't know i tell all about this here ,
because she didnt know i made this blog ...
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the truth is ...
this morning a friend of mine leave me .
he said i'm changed ..
he was my bff ...
we used to go on a vacation together ,
hangout , study and others ...

and i was really sad ...
then i seen my girlfriend online .
i start to chat with her .
and i said "i misssss youuuu"
shes just "XD"
and when i said "I Love You"
she didnt reply or she's just like... " thats all?
is that the way to reply ILY word?
wtf was that?

and a sudden pain attack my heart , now i feel like i'm on Gothic .
i even didnt realize i pierced my hand with a sharp pencil ,
and it bleed the whole night ...
i'm super sad .

she didnt even give me love when i need it ..

and when i made a diary in Tinierme ,
she never comment on it ...
but i've seen she comment on her other friends diary ...

i'm just dissapointed ...

i hanged out with my new best friend , named Hafiz
and old best friend , Zainul and Khuzairi .
Hafiz is the one who cheer me up the most ...
but when we go to a restaurant to eat ,
i seen a couple of cat ...
even the cat knows how to love ,
i seen both cat is like ...flirting?
yea, both knows how to love ...
they're cats , we're humans ...

does that the proof that cats knows how to love more than humans?
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I don't want to say any more thing ...
i just write all of this to express my feeling -,-


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have a good day readers ...
enjoy my song ...

Slipknot - Snuff
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Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
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So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I cant destroy what isnt there
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Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I dont deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
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I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldnt face a life without your lights
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But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight
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So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldnt hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?
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I only wish you werent my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
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So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
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And I wont listen to your shame
You ran away, youre all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care dont ever let me know
If you still care dont ever let me know

Finally I'm Back!

I forgot my password...
thats why i can update my blog... :p
now i'm back~

well...i was too sad before..
but now my life getting better..

too much thing happened..
but unfortunately i cant update my blog that time =w=

did you know that i already have a girlfriend? :p
haha..
yea...her name is Nina(Real Name Is Private)..
say hi to her and always be nice to her!
I LOVE HER!! >:O
so you better watch out ! =o=

umm...i dunno what to say anymore...
thats all for today i guess..

next time i'll post something better..
and full of <3
hehehee :p

about my Love Story...
it's my privacy~ <3
you'll know it sooner or later...

sorry for the BIG youtube EMBED...
haha..idk how to re-size it..because i already forgot how to... =o=
i havent update my blog for a long timey!! :p
i love the song.... ^.^

BUT I LOVE NINA'S MORE!! <3

My Feeling's Today...

Just like in the IMSOMNIUM-BLACK WATERS song...
the one that playing right now....

Misfortunes has face my kind.....
and today....my friend that i trust...
doesn't trust me....that sux... =w=

He doesn't believe what i'm saying...
Hey!...if you all wanna know....i never lie to ya'll...
I would NEVER lie to my friend....
That's my LIFE RULE....
And LIE is a disgrace for me...

The name "Liar" that some of them call me...
Is really Strong....It could hurt me deep inside...
And once happen that the word "Liar" making me feel like to QUIT all thing i got...

Why all of my friend don trust me?...
Hey!...think positively DUMBO....
I'm your friend!....and i'm a Honest person...
Did i ever LIE to you before?....HUH??!! o.O

Well yeah....In my religion....
Those who LYING...even ONCE!...
They tongue will be CUT in HELL ya know??!!..

Heh....Which one better?...
I being a Honest person or BAD and LIAR person huh??!! o.O

I think it's better if i being BAD and LIAR person...
because EVEN if i being Honest....
I'll be called a LIAR and no one's would BELIEVE and TRUST me!!!

The word "Liar" could really HURT me deep INSIDE...
And!!....If someone don't believe and trust me...
Since i really believe and trust HIM/HER...
THAT WOULD REALLY HURT ME....

Well Yeah!....This post is longer than others....
I got more to write....but i think it's enough....
Writing this much has relief some pain from me...
=w=

I HATE THOSE PPL THAT CALL ME A LIAR AND DON'T BELIEVE ME!!
REMEMBER THAT!!...
HAH!...YOU KNOW THAT I AIN'T EASILY HATE PPL!!....
BUT FOR THOSE KIND OF PPL!!...I'LL HATE THEM!!...

*Really pissed*
=w=

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INSOMNIUM-BLACK WATERS LYRIC :

Somber is my mind, now that
Misfortunehas faced my kind;
Weary glazed stare, Beneath the
Pitch-black hair.
On my cheeks, once so live, Adorn
Flood of tears, caused by strife
And as I griewe under the sky, even
Raven croaks to me it's despise

My warm hand against your cold
Palm...
Words echoing in the air through
You're gone...

Somber is my mind, Black is the
Colour I feel
These completely dead emotions,
Drain the last bit of me
No matter how many tiers I shed,
No matter how much I repent
Some things just can't be undone
And some of us can't be forgiven.

No matter how many tears I shed,
Some this can't be undone...

I've reached the point of the no return,
These are deeds from I can not flee
From a reflection I see a tired man,
Longin for a relief
The Black waters in front of me
Will sway me till I'm in sleep,
Carry me to the shores of Manala
Where I'll be free from my sins.
The Black waters will sway me till I'm sleep...

This Roaring stream will wash me
Pure and clean...

Undian Warna Lambang...

Undian nama group telah berakhir...dan keputusannya...
nama group akan ditukar menjadi Scattered Dandelion....

kali ini kita semua akan membuat undian warna lambang pula...

Aku cadangkan korang pilih "Putih Hijau"...
sebab...aku nak buat tulisan lanbang tu warna merah...
jadi...

Merah+Putih+Hijau

ketiga-tiga warna itu ada di lambang sekolah SMKBBU...

Kombinasi warna yang sangat menarik... :3

tarikh tutup ialah 27hb november 2010...
undian dibuat di bahagian kanan blog...
pilih dengan hati2 dan fikir masak2...
anda menentukan lambang masadepan group Scattered Dandelion...

Pencarian Nama baru Untuk Group SMKBBU Yang Telah Wujud..

Bunga Dandelion bercantum benih-benihnya...
kita semua ibarat benihnya semasa kita bersekolah....kita membesar sama-sama....dan apabila tiba akhir tahun....ada dikalangan kita yang akan berpecah...
terutamanya pada tahun ini...selepas PMR kita semua akan menaiki tingkatan 4 dan ada yang bertukar sekolah atau berpindah....

sebab itulah aku pilih nama group ini "Scattered Dandelion"...
yang bermaksud "Bunga Dandelion Yang Telah Berpisah"...

ini hanyalah nam cadangan aku sahaja ...
aku tak paksa...itu kebebasan korang untuk pilih nama2 lain....

aku harap korang pilih yang terbaik...
kerana ia akan jadi nama group kita buat selamanya....

undian dibuat disebelah kanan itu...

tarikh tutup 30 november 2010....

terima kasih... ^.^

One Of My Fav For Now....Insomnium-Drawn To Black

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Actually it's playing rite now...you don't need to play the one above... XP
I've set the autoplay... ^.^
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Enjoy~

INSOMNIUM-DRAWN TO BLACK

Wreathed in silence, laid down in shades
Swathed in regrets, deluded astray
Forgotten in half-light, drawn in despair
Soothed in slumber so dreadful and fair

Rending and searing and twisting my dreams
Alone in the gloom with the nightmares unseen

The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one:
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done

Worthless the pledges, all vows but lies
Fateful her kisses, where a serpent hides
First beckoned to step from the twilight to glare
Then left in the dark for the demons to share

Only the stars see, only the moon hears...

And quietly the water-lilies sigh
Like the last breath of a weary soul
And the weed sway in the dreary waters
Like a girl's dark hair they wave about

And the black stones under my bare feet
Cold and smooth like her milk-white palm
And the silence which falls upon this shore
Resounds now louder than oncoming storm

For all is gone

The Sadness And Happiness Of Eidul Adha

Assalamualaikum(For Muslim)

Happy Eidul Adha For All Muslim!...

Today i've eat a lot kind of food...
And today i've eat for 5 time's...
Well....i got a stomache today because i eaten too much... =w=
But now i'm okay...so i can eat moreee!~

I'm not sleeping at my Village...
I online my Facebook and Tinierme instead...lol

Yeah....right now i'm not in my home...
I'm at my Village....the connection here is bad...
Tomorrow i got to go to the Funeral...

I'm really sorry for my big brother Amirul Denil a.k.a "Bannedpower"..
He celebrate's Eidul Adha without his Granfather and Grandmother...
This year end is the most full of sad in my life!...
I hope the incoming years would be happier end...

This "Takbir Raya" always make me feel sad....
T^T

But i can't resist to hear it...
It's too good.... T^T

I'm sorry because i post this entry late...
Well...yesterday...when i wan't to update this blog...
My broadband is gone!.... :/

Okay...Thanks for reading...
For all my muslim friends...
Happy Eidul Adha... ^.^

For Malaysian...
Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidil Adha..
Jika anda semua berada di kampung...
Semoga anda semua selamat pergi dan balik...
Berhati-hati dijalan raya..
Utamakan keselamataan..
Ingatlah orang yang tersayang... ^.^

Thanks again for reading... ^.^

Insyaallah... ^.^